"I'm not a very good Master or a magus, hell I think I'm an awful human being too at times."

He's not the only self destructive individual in the room and it shows even though Rin follows all of that up with a light laugh. If she laughs about it, then it's not as serious as a topic as it really was.

"I like to think that this place is giving me another chance. Maybe this time I'll be a Master fit for a Servant of your caliber and we can do good here. That's my goal at least. It isn't an ideal one, but it's something to get me up in the morn--achoo!"

Sheepishly diving her face into the pillow, the rest of her words are drowned out by the fabric muffling her embarrassment.