karkat vantrash (
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capeandcowllogs2013-02-20 02:30 pm
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how do you keep it together? you make me feel so criminal.
WHO: karkat and ruka, karkat and gamzee.
WHERE: ruka's place.
WHEN: 3am on the 20th.
WARNINGS: ruka throws knives first, asks questions later. gamzee exists.
SUMMARY: karkat finally crawls out of the abyss of manpain to (sort of) rejoin society.
FORMAT: action.
[ there's a cutoff point where your responsibilities and the shame of indulging in such flagrant self pity eventually overtakes the desire to wallow in self pity. it's while curled up in the ablution trap -- closer to a recuperacoon than the bed, at least -- nestled in the bedclothes he'd dragged in there that it begins to dawn on him that he may have reached that point.
he still feels as though some invisible hand has come and ripped away some integral part of his being, still feels naked, vulnerable, and humiliated, still feels terror at the very thought of facing any of his friends ever again, but -- it's either go back, or skip town altogether and never look back.
he doesn't think he has the fortitude to leave behind everyone he cares about, therefore he's left with no choice but to take the second option. ]
WHERE: ruka's place.
WHEN: 3am on the 20th.
WARNINGS: ruka throws knives first, asks questions later. gamzee exists.
SUMMARY: karkat finally crawls out of the abyss of manpain to (sort of) rejoin society.
FORMAT: action.
[ there's a cutoff point where your responsibilities and the shame of indulging in such flagrant self pity eventually overtakes the desire to wallow in self pity. it's while curled up in the ablution trap -- closer to a recuperacoon than the bed, at least -- nestled in the bedclothes he'd dragged in there that it begins to dawn on him that he may have reached that point.
he still feels as though some invisible hand has come and ripped away some integral part of his being, still feels naked, vulnerable, and humiliated, still feels terror at the very thought of facing any of his friends ever again, but -- it's either go back, or skip town altogether and never look back.
he doesn't think he has the fortitude to leave behind everyone he cares about, therefore he's left with no choice but to take the second option. ]