[ madison jeffries continues to occupy a place in her mind that no one else ever can. what a broken man he'd been, tormented and confused by his own desires. how earnest he'd been at times-- and cruel, yes. he had loved her and hurt her more than anyone she'd ever known. she'd watched him do the same to his lonely wife. the man was not a sadist-- but misery loves company, and misery knew madison jeffries well.

sometimes she would look at lillian crawley and wonder if she too would become like that-- angry, damaged, lost-- if she had loved madison as long as that woman had. ]

Yes. [ danger responds at length, quiet and a little distant. ] He taught me how another's love could be cruel. And how my own love could be cruel as well. Loving another being is to welcome them to hurt you. It is an agreement that you will endure the pain they will inevitably cause you.