Bakura Ryou [獏良了] (
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[Semi Open] But as far as I can see you are still miles from me In your doorway
WHO: Bakura and anyone who would be in Hell Towers or coming to visit
WHERE: Hell Towers 10th
WHEN: All day Thursday
WARNINGS: Emo, reference to character death
SUMMARY: Bakura attempts to start dealing with the chaos that tore his world apart in his absence and come to terms with the state of his life.
FORMAT: Para to start, whatever people want after
The hardest part was the time that had passed. Passed for everyone else, but not for him. One moment, his world was fading to black, turning so so cold as his life was drained away, everything shutting down as he was pulled into the darkness once more.
And then he was in the Porter building. No soothing nothingness to cradle him, no whispering voices from times long ago, no feeling of a presence gently pushing him back, blocking his way from whatever it was waiting.
It hadn't felt real. No marks on his neck, nothing to indicate anything had happened. Only the sudden change of location. It was almost like it had been when he had worn the Ring. One moment sitting at his desk, working on his homework, the next, waking up in bed, still dressed. One moment heading back to his apartment, the next, inside the back room of the Black Crown.
One moment in his apartment, struggling to hang on to consciousness, the next, the Porter room.
It had taken him a while to even reach for the new comm, the shaking adrenaline and realization of just what had happened sending him crashing to his knees. And then the first voice to answer him, speaking words that made no sense to him.
Alastair would never...
But he had.
He didn't know what to think, what to feel, how to even respond. Something that should never have happened to him again, and yet, it had.
Don't be angry, don't be upset, he did it because you were killed, they just got in my way...
He'd stayed with Ben and Qui-Gon, not even coming up to his apartment. Not wanting to face it, not wanting to see...
He wasn't sure he even wanted to see now. The thought of the struggle that he had lost... what would it even look like? Trowa said he had prepared it, would it all be as if nothing had happened?
Was Alastair even back from the hospital...?
He stood outside the doorway, still in his indecision. The door was only inches away, but it may have been a mile.
He didn't know what to do. He couldn't hide away form it forever, he knew that at least. But nothing else was clear.
Not even who he could trust.
WHERE: Hell Towers 10th
WHEN: All day Thursday
WARNINGS: Emo, reference to character death
SUMMARY: Bakura attempts to start dealing with the chaos that tore his world apart in his absence and come to terms with the state of his life.
FORMAT: Para to start, whatever people want after
The hardest part was the time that had passed. Passed for everyone else, but not for him. One moment, his world was fading to black, turning so so cold as his life was drained away, everything shutting down as he was pulled into the darkness once more.
And then he was in the Porter building. No soothing nothingness to cradle him, no whispering voices from times long ago, no feeling of a presence gently pushing him back, blocking his way from whatever it was waiting.
It hadn't felt real. No marks on his neck, nothing to indicate anything had happened. Only the sudden change of location. It was almost like it had been when he had worn the Ring. One moment sitting at his desk, working on his homework, the next, waking up in bed, still dressed. One moment heading back to his apartment, the next, inside the back room of the Black Crown.
One moment in his apartment, struggling to hang on to consciousness, the next, the Porter room.
It had taken him a while to even reach for the new comm, the shaking adrenaline and realization of just what had happened sending him crashing to his knees. And then the first voice to answer him, speaking words that made no sense to him.
Alastair would never...
But he had.
He didn't know what to think, what to feel, how to even respond. Something that should never have happened to him again, and yet, it had.
Don't be angry, don't be upset, he did it because you were killed, they just got in my way...
He'd stayed with Ben and Qui-Gon, not even coming up to his apartment. Not wanting to face it, not wanting to see...
He wasn't sure he even wanted to see now. The thought of the struggle that he had lost... what would it even look like? Trowa said he had prepared it, would it all be as if nothing had happened?
Was Alastair even back from the hospital...?
He stood outside the doorway, still in his indecision. The door was only inches away, but it may have been a mile.
He didn't know what to do. He couldn't hide away form it forever, he knew that at least. But nothing else was clear.
Not even who he could trust.
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And there were just the feelings he'd had over the last week otherwise. Rage over Bakura's death, frustration that they couldn't find who was responsible, anger at himself for failing not one but both of his brothers, vague irritation that his anguish over Alastair was all in vain anyway...Every moment of annoyance he'd felt over the last few days were just hitting him now and, while he could supress it around Alastair, it was even more frustrating to do that.
But he couldn't just go out and do something about it; he had to, wanted to, stay close to Alastair and their apartment in case Bakura came home. Speaking of...
He paused the game and went to check whether Bakura had come back yet again...and blinked a little when he saw that yes he was. It took another moment before he could say anything.
"...Bakura...?"
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He looked almost like he was on the verge of tears again, but these were mostly relieved.
i got this notif! :O
\o/ They seem to be mostly fixed!
hopefully! \o/
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"Why do you have to do anything?" he said after a moment. "No one got hurt in the end."
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"But.. but he..." Bakura's voice choked a little. "Shuichi-kun.. and Bruno...! When he said he..."
He was still no good at forming the right words. But at least he wasn't getting angry this time. It was an improvement.
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"With Bruno...he was just trying to protect me...the others were just in the wrong place at the wrong time."
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But he couldn't just ignore it...
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"Why do you have such a problem with it?" he asked finally, sounding a little harsher than he really wanted. he didn't think Bakura would really appreciate what they'd done this weekend, but this wasn't just not appreciating it.
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That was right... Kiryu didn't know about...
"Because that's what the Ring's voice did..." he said in a very soft voice.
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But he'd also tried to help Alastair with no reason to. And he hadn't been completely unpleasant to talk to.
"They're not the same," he said after a long moment.
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That was why it hurt more. Because Alastair was better than that.
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He wasn't sure why he was so frustrated all of a sudden, especially when he'd been doing so well holding back. But he definitely hadn't thought Bakura would be so upset with them. He just wanted everything to go back to how it was.
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Souls returning on their own... had that ever happened? The Ring had to be defeated by Yuugi before any of his friends had been released. And he had been too afraid that his other friends hadn't been restored, or worse, and died before they could have been to check.
But nothing was right in this place. After all, his own soul...
He tensed a little, breath catching. Don't think about it, don't think about it, don't--
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Actually, maybe he shouldn't mention who had answered his called for help. It probably wouldn't result in good things. Especially considering he hadn't actually helped.
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He rubbed his eyes again. Not going to cry, not going to cry, goddamnit, Bakura Ryou, you're 19 years old, almost an adult, be an adult about these things and stop crying!
He took a shuddering deep breath, trying to cut off the memories and get himself back under control.
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It only made sense. His magic had changed when he had lost that weekend. When Alastair had been taken...
And the Porter did enjoy making people hurt.
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"That was right after the nightmares too, wasn't it? Maybe...that was why..."
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