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Dick Grayson, age eighteen [COMPLETE]
WHO: Dick (...not Robin and not 12), Tim (Robin III), Cass (Batgirl II)
WHERE: In the Titans Tower
WHEN: March 2nd, morning. That was the last thing to happen on the night before.
WHAT: Hey shit I'm in another guy's bed.
WARNING: Hilarious misunderstandings. Except - "hilarious" might not be the best adjective to use because that log is so emo. God. Kill the emo or something B|
FORMAT: Paraform
He wasn't in his bed or his room. Not that he'd been in his room in the last months (he always wondered if he had been given his old room or if it was now empty - maybe Alfred still cleaned it even if he wasn't - no, he wasn't getting there) but he wasn't in the crappy apartment he had rented in downtown Gotham. He thought for a second he may have been back home because the bed was too comfortable but - no.
He was in the bed of some guy he didn't know. Shit. Shit shit shit. How had that happened, exactly? He tried remembering the night before but he was obviously missing a big chunk of it because he couldn't even remember doing anything that may have lead to forgetting anything.
Or to wake up in some guy's bed.
Dressed. Okay, dressed was positive, right? He sat up, ready to just get the fuck out of here, staring at the guy in the process and - yeah, yeah, he looked a little like Bruce. Maybe that's why he had?... No. No, really not going there. Just, get a grip, find the door and step out, that would work.
WHERE: In the Titans Tower
WHEN: March 2nd, morning. That was the last thing to happen on the night before.
WHAT: Hey shit I'm in another guy's bed.
WARNING: Hilarious misunderstandings. Except - "hilarious" might not be the best adjective to use because that log is so emo. God. Kill the emo or something B|
FORMAT: Paraform
He wasn't in his bed or his room. Not that he'd been in his room in the last months (he always wondered if he had been given his old room or if it was now empty - maybe Alfred still cleaned it even if he wasn't - no, he wasn't getting there) but he wasn't in the crappy apartment he had rented in downtown Gotham. He thought for a second he may have been back home because the bed was too comfortable but - no.
He was in the bed of some guy he didn't know. Shit. Shit shit shit. How had that happened, exactly? He tried remembering the night before but he was obviously missing a big chunk of it because he couldn't even remember doing anything that may have lead to forgetting anything.
Or to wake up in some guy's bed.
Dressed. Okay, dressed was positive, right? He sat up, ready to just get the fuck out of here, staring at the guy in the process and - yeah, yeah, he looked a little like Bruce. Maybe that's why he had?... No. No, really not going there. Just, get a grip, find the door and step out, that would work.
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Of course, whoever was moving around next to him was... bigger than Dick. Tim opened his eyes and blinked, sitting up to get a clearer look at...
... "Dick?"
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Oh - because he had told his real name, too. Just fabulous. He stopped in his movement without turning to look at the guy, not feeling comfortable about that at all and passed a hand through his hair.
"Hey, listen - I'm sorry but I don't remember your name. And I'm not - I don't need it." He sighed and turned halfway to throw a glance at him.
...Hopefully, he hadn't been the one to hurt him like that because. Geez. And also fuck. But - no, he could tell the bruises were older than a few hours...
What the Hell was going on?
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"You don't remember my - oh." And embarrassment, as the meaning of that set in and he blushed a furious red. "We didn't - I'm not - it's not like that."
He cleared his throat and tried to move on from that as quickly as possible. "Do you even remember where you are?"
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Judging from his words, Dick had been here for a while. Or at least was supposed to know where 'here' was. So - amnesia? Out of the blue like that? Not especially probable at all.
Bruce would know what was going on - he'd be able to analyze his surroundings and come to an intelligent hypothesis that would have over 90% of chances of being the right one.
He really, really needed to stop thinking about Bruce as often as he already did.
"I have absolutely no idea," he answered frankly, "Am I supposed to?"
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"I... hm. We're in the City - not Gotham. The police force here vanished a while ago, so this guy called Iron Man started dragging in people from other worlds to take their place as heroes. All sorts of other worlds, and different times." He looked at Dick carefully, apologetic and as openly honest as he could make his expression. "The last time I saw you, last night, you were twelve. I don't... know what's happened to change that."
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But Dick had met aliens and heard of the multi-verse when he had been Robin, he could believe it. The thing was - he didn't remember hopping between universes at twelve years old, so if his younger self was he and there had been a... an aging thing? How would that even work?
Nothing was very logical but he had to adjust and go with the flow. To find as much information possible in the process. That was part of being a good Robin and he was not incompetent, whatever Bruce may have been thinking. He could -
Christ, would that ever stop?
"Twelve? So I was - I had an alias? A vigilante life?" He asked slowly, cautiously.
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"Yeah, you were Robin." Something about what Dick said struck him - had a vigilante life? Wasn't he Nightwing yet? ... Better not to ask about that, not yet. "Like me, so that was a little - awkward to start with. But it worked out."
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He clenched his fists and his jaw. The other guy was badly beaten up (probably doing Dick's job) and letting any anger go through now wouldn't lead to anything. Dick really couldn't keep the anger in at all, but he could stop himself from letting it... being transformed into physical contact. He wasn't going to hit anyone, and possibly not anything either.
He glared, dangerous, into the other guys' eyes, taking in the deepest breaths he could, starting on a meditation routine without thinking about it.
"Jason Todd?"
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"I - no, I'm not him. I'm Tim, Tim Drake, the one - after Jason." He swallowed - that might not go over so well, actually, but he had to tell the truth - he couldn't lie, not to Dick, not when he was obviously hurting. "You - in my world, you're Nightwing."
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Dick hoped Jason had been fired too, had been rejected and hadn't been enough either. Hadn't been good enough. Only - if that was what had happened, then Bruce had replaced him with another failure, had gotten rid of him for nothing - it hadn't even been worth it.
The comment about Nightwing never even reached Dick. The name didn't mean anything to him and he had other things to think about.
"Are you good enough? How much time before he gets rid of you and finds another replacement?" He asked, coldly, not able to stop himself.
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But no, that wouldn't happen. Couldn't happen, not here and now.
And his pride was stung, in spite of himself. He frowned slightly. "I am. He won't - unless I leave him."
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"How do you know that you're so much better than I was? Has he told you? Does he love you?" Dick's voice cracked a little there but his hands remains exactly where they were, "Does he love you even though he didn't love - never loved me?"
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"Dick - Dick, please, I'm not - not from your world, please. Listen to me, please, Dick, it's not... not the same." He struggled in Dick's grip a little, eyes wide and pleading.
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Dick didn't move or speak for a few long seconds before finally realizing where he was, what he was doing. Tim was already hurt enough, and this was apparently recent, still - he didn't need Dick making his wounds any worse.
Dick closed his eyes and tried to control his breathing, releasing his hold on Tim. He stepped away slightly and sat on the edge on the bed, his back to the other... his back to Robin and holding his face in his hands.
He didn't apologize but he thought about it. When he trusted his voice not to go on wavering if he talked, he spoke up, "Explain what's going on. More. With - with Bruce."
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"Alright. The first thing is that I'm not from your world, just one that's similar. In mine... the Joker had nothing to do with your parents' death." It was the first big difference he could think of to make his point, even though it was a dangerously painful subject to bring up, especially when Dick was already so upset. "You - when you were done being Robin, you left and made your own name. Your own hero identity, Nightwing. And Bruce - my Bruce, he... was impressed. Proud. That you could stand on your own."
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He tried nodding again when Tim told him who Nightwing was but ended up just staring in front of him with empty eyes, breathing heavily. He couldn't figure... couldn't imagine Bruce being proud of him over getting his own name with his current abilities. Coward and incompetent - but what if Bruce was waiting for him to stand up and make a statement. Was it acting like a coward to have stopped everything when he had been fired? Not wanting to be anyone other than Robin?
No - Bruce had made it clear that he was to remain out of the streets, that he wasn't good enough. The situation for that other self seemed to different to apply to his. He couldn't compare, it would only hurt him.
"I don't think-" that Bruce would react that way. No, he had looked desperate enough already, had reacted too quickly. He didn't need to keep on going.
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After a moment, he hesitantly reached out, trying the kind of reassuring gesture that Nightwing would have, maybe - he just touched Dick's shoulder. "I'm sorry."
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There was - other things going on. Things he could talk about and try and ignore and forget for a few minutes at least. "So - parallel universe," Dick commented, sounding tired, "I'm guessing there's no known way out of here?"
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"No. People have been looking for a way this started, unsuccessfully." He paused, debating how much to share. "I've been here for months."
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And Dick was... had forced him into it by being a jerk out of jealousy. He couldn't even kid himself into thinking that wasn't what was going on because it was, so very clearly.
He had wanted him to stay back and not talk about it but... was there really any way not to, in the current situation? Even if Dick wanted to push everything out so badly, right now, he wouldn't stop thinking about it and Bruce and his Robins - plural - was bound to sneak his way bad into any conversation Dick would have with Tim.
And Tim being there for months meant Dick would probably get to stay, too.
He faced Tim again, slightly more confident than before but obviously still very messed up. "Shit. I'm - I'm sorry, okay? I know you mean well but it's really hard on me."
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"I know that it's not easy, being ripped out of your world and - away from everyone you know" His mouth quirked up into a wry, almost-painful smile for just a second. "Or meeting different versions of them, so you don't even know how to feel, let alone how to act." It might have been a little obvious what he meant, though he didn't expect Dick to understand how he felt - after all, Dick wasn't having to deal with that particular problem just yet. And maybe Tim should try and help him to avoid it for the most part, too.
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"Was there anyone else you knew?" He had been here for month, after all - plenty of times to meet a lot of people, to see some seriously weird breaks in the multi-verse... "How long have I been here? My younger self?" There was another question bothering but he wasn't sure he wanted to know its answer. Something else he wouldn't be able to avoid, obviously. "Is there- is there anyone I know, here?"
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"There are a few people from my world, but most of them are from my past, which makes it... difficult. The Catwoman here is from my time, the Batgirl - not the redhead - is from at least a year ago. And then there are... my friends, who are - they were." He paused to swallow, steeling himself and heading back into Batman territory without meaning to, just a little. "They're dead, and yet here they are."
He sighed and shook his head a little, as if to say that that didn't matter. "You'd already been here for a week or two when I arrived. And... yeah, your Batman was here. But he got ported out a while ago, so we've been working without him. Without anyone but ourselves and Batgirl, really, all this time." He hoped that he hadn't put too much stress on the fact that they'd been working together, though it was important to him. And now he had to say the last part, too. "Until... about a week ago. I - was taken captive, but then my Batman showed up, and. I only saw him yesterday, just briefly, I don't know when he's from."
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First - more than one Batgirl. Dick only knew one and she hadn't lasted that long, never having been approved by Batman. These Batgirls were part of the family as much as the Robins were since Tim wasn't letting on any negative vibes about them at all and specified that the non-redhead Batgirl was someone he worked with. Dead friends and the likes were the concrete proof that people that had been taken away from their home and brought here were from both different timelines and completely various dimensions. In brief - total chaos and anyone ever could show up.
His Batman had been and Tim wasn't specifying from what moment in time he had came from. He also hadn't known about their fallout so it was probably some twenty-six year old Bruce, to match with his twelve year old self. They had still been working together but had been at their debut - Bruce had been hard on him at first, keeping an incredible distance between them... Dick couldn't read what Tim had thought of his Batman at that point at all.
Then there was the obvious repeats on how they, Dick and Tim, had been working together. Tim really wanted Dick to know they had been on good term but it - it still didn't change the fact Tim's presence and existence was. Hurtful. Difficult. Dick would deal because he'd need to, but it was all sprained on him and accepting - coping - was going to take more than a few minutes.
A quick note that being captive was probably the source of Tim's numerous injuries.
And finally - Tim's Batman. The one who hadn't thrown his Dick Grayson away. He was. Here. And sure enough he would learn of Dick's presence because it was still Batman.
Dick didn't know what to think about that at all. He had to remember it wasn't his Batman, it was a stranger. A complete stranger that would... look, and sound, and possibly act like Bruce did. But still a stranger. Not someone he knew. Not someone who knew him.
Not someone who knew him.
"Are you sure it's your Batman?" Probably, yes. But Dick had to ask.
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"I am. You're the one who told me - I was, ah." He frowned for a moment, not wanting to say too much about his own problems. After all, he'd be fine now. "A little out of it, so I didn't realise at first. But it was him."
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Not his Batman. God, that was going to be difficult to assimilate.
He sat more comfortably on the bed, feeling more at ease each minute (far from 'completely at ease', but his jealousy calming down) and thought for a moment. At the beginning of that conversation there had been a mention of replacing the police force and superpowers.
And now that Dick wasn't letting himself get too distracted, he had way too many questions. Did he suddenly have a power? Unknown. Did he want to be a vigilante (or superhero, now, he guessed) again if he wasn't Robin? No. Where had he been living? Unknown. Why the freaking Hell had he woken up in Tim's bed? That had remained very unanswered and was still as weird as it had been when Dick had just woken up.
"Serious stuff here. Do I live here, are you short on beds and where is 'here', exactly?" More than one of his questions would be answered that way - not a bad start.
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"No, you live at the Cave. You were visiting to make sure that I slept, because I was - being kind of stubborn about not needing rest." Because he'd been having trouble sleeping at all, the nightmares strong and resurgent. A cloud passed over his face at the thought, but he forced it away. "And I wouldn't you sleep on the floor, and - you were only twelve, and like my little brother..." He trailed off into sheepish silence, still embarrassed over how they'd woken up.
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He waved a hand just barely, "Don't - don't worry about it more than that. It was definitely a weird wake up but... you couldn't have known anything about what was going to happen. I -" He pauses, "You still haven't told me where we were? Your apartment?"
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"I - weird. Yeah." He shook his head. "No, I don't have an apartment. This is the Titans Tower, the headquarters for... my team. Since we were stuck here, I kind of - thought it would be good to organise the teenaged heroes, you know? And some of them can't afford their own places, so there are rooms here." He paused to give Dick a faint smile. "You're welcome to stay in one of the spare rooms until you get settled."
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A place to live. Food. Clothes. Without money or a job, they were all three impossible to get right now except by taking on Tim's offer. Tim's... generous offer considering Dick had been practically attacking him not long ago.
"That'd help. I'll be looking for some way to get by without your help as soon as possible and all that."
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So he nodded, smiling slightly. "Of course. Don't feel like you have to rush it, though - you need time to get used to... well, everything about this place."
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"Your team lives here, then? I'm guessing most of them know be as five years younger." It wasn't a question at all and so Dick didn't pause to let Tim answer anything, "Do you want to - I don't even know. Warn them? I don't feel all that much comfortable walking out of your room if there are gonna be people staring an asking questions on the other side."
And he wouldn't even be able to answer the questions which wouldn't help with the comfort problems.
Or he could walk out, get a room, and ever only be in the Tower to sleep. And keep on having the completely wrong social life he'd had for a while. That... yeah, that could actually work.
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But Batgirl was undoubtedly around, so that wasn't really an option anyway. "Yeah, I should... let them know." Tim carefully attempted to ease himself out of bed, moving slowly as he made his way past Dick. His legs ached and threatened to pitch him onto the floor, so he ended up leaning on the wall and pausing to catch his breath and steady himself. This was - embarrassing.
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Dick didn't even stand up, not really wanting to, observing Tim and listening to his difficult breathing. It was, of course, cruel and irrational - from Tim's word, his Batman hadn't acted the same with his Dick Grayson and he had nothing to do with anything concerning Dick's current issues and feelings.
Knowing that didn't change the fact seeing Tim like that was... slightly enjoyable.
Dick still had manners and some part of his brain was making rational choices, somewhere. "Do you want any help?" He asked, not letting out any clues about what were his feelings on the subject.
sob Dick you are such a jerk :x
He couldn't just treat Dick the same as he would treat Nightwing, that much was clear.
He breathed in and straightened his back, stubbornly stopping himself from leaning on the wall and ignoring the soreness. When he spoke, his voice had gone all closed-off again, like Bruce - but he couldn't help that. He had to keep his emotions to himself and be careful here. "I'll be fine."
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And if it didn't, he'd have to live with the fact he naturally acted like Batman without meaning to from time to time.
Something difficult about it was that if he could associate Tim to his Batman, then both Bruces had to have similar behaviours, too. Tim had to be basing off his behaviour on him, after all. So, in the City, was a stranger with Bruce's looks and most of his personality, who didn't know him but was in good term with someone who shared Dick's DNA.
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He was intending to write a note and place it on the noticeboard, and one on the fridge since it was more likely to be noticed by just about everyone that way, but... well, if there was anyone awake and in the main room or kitchen right now, he might not have to.
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"Not Nightwing..." she asked for confirmation's sake. Looking back at Dick somewhat shyly, she scrambled to her feet and held up her hand in greeting. Of course, she didn't expect to be recognized. "Hi."
Where had he come from?
Glancing back at Tim, she asked, "Need help?" He seemed ambivalent on whether he wanted it from Dick. And Dick seemed ambivalent on offering it. This was uncomfortable.
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A female friend of Tim, who knew Nightwing - the first guess was easy enough, "Batgirl?" Her eyes agreed silently and he made a motion with his head to encourage her into taking his place by Tim's side. She knew him better and probably didn't have the most intense mood swings ever in his presence - about his presence.
"I'll." appropriate myself a room, "is there a specific room I should be taking?"
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"This is... the same Dick who was here, only older. And without memories of this place, so - from the same reality, but later? I'm not sure yet." He shook his head slightly, frustrated - he'd have to do more research. But in the meantime... "The bedrooms at the back are empty, take your pick." He gestured down the hallway they'd just exited - his room was at the front of it, to be near the entrance. "And feel free to get some breakfast."
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"Cocoa?" She offered to both of them, helping Tim to the table and fetching the materials so he could write the notes. Surely Alfred would be proud.
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"Ah, yeah, thanks." He walked to the nearest cupboards, "Do you have any cereals or fruits here?" Anything he wouldn't have to cook, really, "And uh - should I be calling you Batgirl?"
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Blah blah awkward breakfast blah.
Blah Dick finds a room and leaves blah.
THE END.