http://phallboy.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] phallboy.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] capeandcowllogs2009-03-12 05:01 pm

non-goobery title [INCOMPLETE]

WHO: Mello and Duo AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :|
WHERE: Mello's AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :|
WHEN: February 25, late morning.
WARNINGS: Naked people. 8U Also this opening tag is going to suck I can tell already.
SUMMARY: Awkwardness. Forever. And ever. /shoves this around even though nobody cares but us hurp
FORMAT: Your mom.

Generally Mello didn't dream, regardless of the situation, or else forgot his dreams quickly. They never seemed very important in the grand scheme of things, what he had to get done.

This morning was no exception in that respect, although warmer. He felt almost comfortable, although not happy (because really, when was he ever happy?). Closed-in.

Wait.

He turned slightly, glanced over his shoulder.

Duo was still there. Very close. Why?

Mello didn't move. He had no appropriate response. So he just waited. Duo would wake up eventually.

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-12 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Duo hadn't been comfortable like this in a long, long time. The last time he'd slept soundly was...

He'd been at home, he was sure of it. And this wasn't even a completely sound sleep, in all honesty. It was just one where he'd been so tired and the pain had forced him to rest, and in the duration, his body had decided to seek the warmth beside it, to bring itself closer.

And so it was nestled up against Mello's shoulder and arm that Duo found himself when he began to regain consciousness, shifting slightly, ever so much, until he fully realized how he was positioned. "Ah!" He sat up suddenly, shooting straight out of bed, staring at Mello with mouth agape, and almost flushed, stuttering his apologies. "I- Sorry, I didn't mean to- I didn't know I was..." He trailed off, staring, hoping Mello wouldn't be angry.

=A= ...

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-13 06:55 am (UTC)(link)
"I-" he thought about it, genuinely. Mello.. didn't seem too bothered, after all. Or maybe he was tired, Duo wasn't completely sure. "...No."

He was staying right there, as long as he could,

He settled back down, against the pillows, but wasn't sure if it'd be okay to lean back against Mello- so he didn't, yet, but settled close still. As long as he could be near him, it would be enough that way.

Here he was, in Mello's bed- he'd had sex, his first time, and with Mello- and it was the next morning, and he had no idea what to say or do.

So he was quiet, settling back into the covers. Wincing. His ass was aching.

No. =A= how do I even. tag this.

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-13 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
Well. He could have gone back to sleep, he supposed, but he wasn't particularly tired- just pained, and lazy. And well, he supposed he could take a day to be lazy. So he didn't go back to sleep, instead just lay in the bed, quiet, looking away from Mello because otherwise there would probably be strange awkwardness that neither wanted.

Of course he'd have had work that day, so he had to call in sick later. He'd do that later, he decided, if the soreness went away a little, or else he was more active- but for now he decided he was to remain in bed, pending world-shattering events for the day.

Maybe this was one of them.

He squirmed slightly, turned on his side, and stared off towards the floor beyond the bed. Maybe he would just think awhile. Whatever came to mind. Even if they were disconcerting things about why he was even there in the first place.

hhhh I read that as. tomahawk what am I.

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-14 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
Mello spoke- Duo was shaken out of his thoughts that he'd allowed to bubble up in the few moments of silence. Mostly inconsequential ones; he didn't quite have the energy yet to think about what was going on at that moment, where he was, what had happened last night and what that would mean for the future. "Mm?"

It did, and it hurt even a little worse than it had the night previous. Then again, injuries, especially muscles, always hurt worse the day after the work than directly after. It was one of those facts of life. He turned slightly, not wanting to roll onto his back (and thus his ass), so he could see Mello, and had a neutral, vaguely thoughtful look. "A little," he answered nonchalantly, a normal volume, with no particular emotion attached. It would remain as simple discussion. It would be easiest that way.

It was just easier not to talk about it.
Edited 2009-03-14 05:12 (UTC)

o =w=

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-15 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
He honestly hadn't expected Mello to stick around, 'chat it up' in bed, so when he threw off the covers, got up, moving to get dressed, Duo wasn't surprised. He noted with vague amusement that Mello did in fact own clothes that weren't leather. However, he couldn't help but be curious about Mello's movements, his strange manner this morning- well, not exactly that, but the way he was dressing was as if he was--

And then he stepped out the window, another strange (but familiar) maneuver, and he left. Ten minutes. What was he going out to do?

And then Duo was left alone in Mello's bed. It was still early in the morning, so it was quiet aside from the normal cityscape sounds. His pain continued like a background noise, and an intensely lazy, sluggish feeling filled him.
But he couldn't just pretend sitting there was nothing. Mello's bed. The morning after. And the pain. It was all too real, too obvious, for anything to attempt to be denied or ignored. But he didn't want to contemplate it- he just wanted to let it be, let it slip by without notice... It wasn't possible though. It was something that refused to be ignored.

And he found himself unable to wish to do so. He sighed. These things. These wishes. The feelings and truths of the previous night that were realized and acknowledged and acted upon- they were too real.

He went back to sleep.

/sleeps instead of tagging zzzzzz

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-15 09:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Duo shifted slightly in his sleep when Mello sat down onto it, making the mattress move a little. In all honesty, he probably shouldn't have let himself sleep, he'd thought as he'd drifted off. There was no telling if he was safe there- alone, and vulnerable, unable to move as quickly as usual. Even from Mello-

No. Not Mello, he decided. Mello wouldn't hurt him now. But enemies of Mello that he might not know of. He dealt with some pretty shady people.

He'd let himself fall asleep regardless, vulnerable now, relatively peaceful in his sleep.

/SLEEPZZZZZZZZZZ =W=

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-16 02:28 am (UTC)(link)
He felt shifting in the bed and that was what eventually tugged Duo from his dozing, squirming slightly before his eyes slowly began to flicker- then fluttered open fully, and he was staring up at the ceiling of... That's right. Mello'd bedroom... he let his head roll to the side.

Oh.

He wondered silently how long Mello'd been sitting there staring at him. It was a rather discomforting thought. "Um. Hey," He mumbled, tugging the covers up over himself more. Well, what else was there to say or do?

no you =w=

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-16 07:17 am (UTC)(link)
This was where it got tricky, of course, because neither seemed to have any particular topic of conversation to bring up. Duo was still naked and Mello was partially so- he still wondered what Mello had been doing.

Then he noticed the thin veneer of sweat on Mello's body. Working out? Mello didn't seem the type to...

Of course. A speedster. Had he been out running? But usually it didn't cause him to break a sweat. He must have been pushing himself pretty far to have been doing that. For a moment he wondered why, and remembered. It was Mello. Mello always had to be the best at everything.

For a moment, a small smile curled his lips. He really did try so hard, didn't he. It was, Duo supposed, on of his few redeeming qualities.

And oh, they were few. But they were there. If they weren't Duo was sure he wouldn't have done what he did the night previous.

"Er. What've you been up to...?" He mumbled, sounding curious, a little awkward. He shifted in the bed, tugged the covers up over him a little more, compulsively.

I don't even have an icon for his "^u^" smile ;w;

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-16 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
"Ah..." Duo let a little grin spread up his own lips, leaning his back into the pillows and watching Mello lay down again. "Running, then?" He didn't wait for a response, because it was obvious enough. "Heh.. you already run circles around me, anyway. I wonder how much faster it's possible for you to get?" He wondered aloud, maybe looking for a response, maybe just rhetorically- he shrugged to himself. "I guess you gotta be a speedster to be able to tell the difference, huh."

He tugged the covers up and over himself to the chest, looking comfortable, a tiny, happy smile giving his lips a c-like curve. It was warm, and he was in pain but with Mello here it was a little more comfortable. It was nice, like this. Little teases and morning grogginess and chatting.

asafdfa wat >:|

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-17 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
The faster you go, the more force you have... Well, of course, that was true. The higher the velocity the more inertia and thus the more power put into something. Duo already knew Mello was capable of superstrength via superspeed, or at least what seemed like superstrength. He wasn't quite sure how to categorize it, but it was there. And so obviously, if he could go faster, he could deal harder blows. It made sense- especially for Mello, who was always after more power, more of- everything, really. To be the best. It was just another step for him...

Duo shook his head with a chuckle. "I guess that's true. So you've improved a lot like this, I guess?" He smiled, as amiably as he could make it, genuinely curious in how one could train powers like that. And he wondered, too, what Mello was capable of like this. The first answer that came to mind was 'anything he puts his mind to'. That's just how Mello was.

He thought a moment, fell quiet again. It was strange, but nice like this. He lay back again, content. He wondered if Mello liked it too. A voice in the back of his mind reminded him with a sigh- he was probably neutral like he was to almost everything.

/slaps =w=

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-17 05:46 am (UTC)(link)
Duo smiled, just a little. He didn't have to see it first hand, and he doubted he'd be able to tell. But it was something about Mello, the effort he put into things, that he liked. He wasn't apathetic. He did care about some things.

Most importantly, that he had the capacity to care.

Duo had a sudden urge- but he wasn't sure if he should act on it. Mello would probably just... He looked like he was struggling with himself internally for a moment, before he seemed to come to a decision. He smiled at Mello, wiggling a little closer.. and a little closer. And then after another second of hesitation, he let himself lean his head onto Mello's shoulder, leaning himself into Mello's side, arm clasping over his slightly... and waited, with a bit of a held breath, expecting to be shoved off. He didn't know why he wanted to do it, but it suddenly... felt right.

no =w=

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-18 12:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Mello didn't push away... well that was good enough, he supposed. Duo relaxed, made himself comfortable in that position- it was nice, the warm, the being close to him and...

He wondered just then, what he was doing here at all. It wasn't a feeling of regret, but of curiosity, at himself. What he was doing, why.. how he'd gotten here. And of all people, gotten here with Mello. Rather the last person he'd ever expected to end up close to like this, no less physically.

Well maybe not the last, necessarily.

hhhh mello wry you kill the cuddly =A=

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-18 07:58 pm (UTC)(link)
It was comfortable and warm, whether Duo let any emotions he had then get involved or not. And were there any? He tried, he didn't want to think about it while Mello was there... but still, he wondered, and was relaxed, content, and-

The minute there was something- something touching his hair, Duo's hand snapped up, grabbed Mello's by the wrist, snapped into a strangle hold around it and pulled away, yanked, pinned, and suddenly Duo was looming over Mello, eyes narrowed and serious, other hand settled on his chest firmly. "Do not. Touch that." His voice was even, his tone and intention clear. No one was allowed. He trusted Mello. But he didn't trust him that much, regardless of any feelings that may have existed or not.

;; /watches mello ruin everything ever

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-19 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
Slowly, solemnly, Duo nodded in return, and rolled back over onto his back to where he was just a moment ago, releasing Mello's wrist. He hesitated a moment before tilting his head back to Mello's shoulder, but didn't curl back into him, yet, having an almost melancholy look on his face.

No matter what he did, he just couldn't have just a little peace, just a little bit of time to relax and-

He just didn't get it. Never did. Duo sighed dejectedly. He supposed it was his fault, this time, but he had no intentions of ever explaining himself. It wasn't for Mello to know.

/sooooooobs and yet. Duo keeps trying v.v

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-19 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
It wasn't that Mello was, necessarily, a threat- rather anyone who attempted something like that would get the same response. It just wasn't something allowed. Mello or not. And that was that.

His eyes slipped half-closed, and he sighed softly. Mello just didn't understand the meaning behind things. But he was warm, and somehow Duo still derived comfort from this, being near and against him, so despite this he still stayed against him, wondering if maybe Mello felt any kind of comfort or warmth from it either.

._. siiiiiiigh he has a tiny hope. WTF DUO WAKE UP WHAT ARE YOU?

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-19 06:30 am (UTC)(link)
It was a flash, but it left Duo confused, and a little lighter, and there was something stirred up inside of him. A kiss... just a small one, and it probably meant nothing- couldn't mean anything because Mello never meant anything with this, couldn't because it was so plain that he didn't understand what it meant to have a vested interest in these actions, in feelings, it was just.. a release. Right. It was just something he did because it felt good.

Or at least that seemed to be how he wanted it to seem. Duo couldn't really know. Even so, Duo felt a little something of it, and slowly, even though it was meaningless, he curled a little more towards Mello, a little more towards the warmth, and let out a sigh that settled for something like content.
Edited 2009-03-20 11:59 (UTC)

ow :| /rereads log and remembers this, edits =w=

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-20 10:14 pm (UTC)(link)
"Mmh...?" Duo blinked, then shot upright again, still leaning against Mello bodily. "I- er, sorry..." One hand went up to rub the back of his head. "I guess- I'll stick around.. until I can leave," he mumbled.

Not that he particularly wanted to.

And it was then that his eyes strayed down and looked, really looked, and they saw, he saw- bruises formed on ribs showing through skin, and his eyes widened slightly- he'd forgotten, how could he have forgotten, that Mello was hurting, had been hurt, and through all of this he'd been--

His eyes strayed back up to Mello's face, to cuts and bruises that he hadn't noticed before, and he couldn't help his expression- worry, sincere worry and sympathy. "Mello..."
Edited 2009-03-22 13:03 (UTC)

;A; b-but

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-26 05:35 am (UTC)(link)
Duo couldn't look up yet- his eyes fixated on bruises and marks, cuts and gashes- he should have been used to this, maybe, from someone who had half of their face horribly scarred- and his neck and some of his shoulder too, Duo noted having now seen Mello topless (and full on naked). But he wasn't. Not on Mello, though admittedly before this the most he'd seen of him was to the pants, with the fly open. He wondered, maybe, if Mello was often hurt beneath the layers of leather.

And he just had to- leaned down, pressing gentle kisses, light touches of lips so that they didn't hurt at all, and fingertips just the same. And they had to be had to be so gentle, and caring, and had to speak his sympathy through them, his care. That he cared.

>B[ Y!!!!!!! /VIOLENT

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-26 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
He paused, softly, when he felt Mello's own hesitation- but when it melted into relaxation, he continued, letting the kisses spread across Mello's stomach and up his ribs, even more tender and careful here, for the most obvious of reasons. There. Old wounds that for Duo, would never heal. He would always look and see them there, freshly cut, as if he had just plunged the scythe into him a second before. Things that couldn't be undone.

He spread upwards, to his chest. He bypassed nipples; they weren't important. They were things that created lust, and this was different. This was for sin. For comfort. For understanding. He spread up to the collarbone.

y =w=

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-26 01:05 pm (UTC)(link)
He noticed it- the flinch, and noted it, pressing close with a kiss once more. He just wanted Mello's relaxation now, just wanted to make him feel good, and maybe, just maybe lessen the pain a little.

He reached upwards with his lips, spreading kisses, light and quick over his collarbone and to his neck, lips pressing in softly, spreading to his ear- and then, he paused, leaning over Mello's body, watching his face- his scarred face, the eyes closed, strangely browless- and he leaned in, pressing a kiss, gentle, to his lips. Do you understand?
Edited 2009-03-26 14:04 (UTC)

yyyy~ =W=

[identity profile] hellraiser02.livejournal.com 2009-03-27 07:16 pm (UTC)(link)
He sighed, softly, pulled his lips away. Of course he didn't get it. He never would.

But things were slow, and soft, and warm instead of hot- things were okay like this, and he rolled off of Mello, flopped back beside him with a sigh and ran a hand through his hair. Mello had his work to do, wanted to get up. It was enough. He would stay.