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karkat vantrash ([personal profile] crab) wrote in [community profile] capeandcowllogs2013-07-16 05:58 pm

you reach inside and tear out all your cables

WHO: karkat and danger.
WHERE: their place.
WHEN: tuesday afternoon.
WARNINGS: karkat's mouth.
SUMMARY: a robot and an alien complain about humanity and are kinda sappy towards each other.
FORMAT: quick!

[ with both of them so busy lately, it's not very often that karkat can manage to catch danger at home. he has more success tracking her down at the institute, or the psychiatric hospital, but today, it seems luck is with him, when he lets himself into her (previously his) room. ]

Danger?
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-07-16 03:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she's awake-- of course she is. she's always awake now. not like before, when exhaustion would finally force her to give into sleep, curled up in one corner of karkat's bed as though, even unconscious, she needed to defend herself.

her attention, and those luminous eyes, are on him the moment he enters the room.
]

I am here, Karkat.
How may I assist you?
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-07-16 10:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ah, yes. hanging out-- an activity that, in fact, has very little to do with hanging, danger's learned. an activity for reinforcing friendship. appropriate then, since this friendship takes priority over many others.

she sits on the bed. it dips under the weight of her metallic body, but she's careful at least, gesturing for karkat to sit with her.
]

Have you found me less accessible recently?
[ a beat, then she goes on: ] That was not my intention.
I apologize.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-07-17 01:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ she's very still as she sits beside him, watching him with that unblinking stare of hers. ]

"Irons in the fire."
I see.


[ she considers this a moment. ]

Will you tell me what you have been doing?
I am interested in "catching up" with you.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-07-18 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ her eyes drift to where his hands curl into fists. she senses his tension-- but she lets it go. if she doesn't believe the lie, she doesn't comment on it either way.

instead:
]

Acknowledged.
Current status: I am pleased to be returned to my robotic body.
Working with Norman Osborn on his facility was irritating at best before.
I believe he did not find me fully competent.
However, an acquaintance of mine has begun to treat me differently, which I am annoyed by.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-07-31 01:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she pauses, as if processing how to describe the way that kirei's behavior towards her had changed. he'd been... repulsed by her, by her mechanical body-- much the same way that madison had been, the first time he'd seen her made of flesh and bone. ]

I thought that he understood me.
That he was accepting of what I am.


[ a pause, then something hardens in her tone, ever so subtly. ]

But when he saw my robotic form, he was displeased with it.
He condescended towards me, as if to make a point of my inferiority in being a machine.
It was unlike him.
I felt betrayed.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-06 04:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she regards karkat in her attentive way while he speaks, carefully processing every word he says before she responds again, perhaps a little resigned: ]

My experiences agree with what you have said.
I suppose I merely hoped naively that his acceptance of me was real.
Perhaps I should have known better.


[ a brief pause, before she reaches out to briefly brush cool metal fingertips against karkat's shoulder. ]

Regardless, I am comforted by your companionship.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-06 08:20 pm (UTC)(link)
And how did you respond, when people "pulled one over you?"
Were you angry?


[ her tone isn't accusing, only curious at most, and she lets the full weight of her attention rest on him expectantly. ]
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-06 08:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ a brief beat. maybe because she remembers what it felt like to be angry every waking moment. or because she loves him. or both. ]

Karkat, I am concerned for you.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-07 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ she takes a moment to choose how she wants to articulate herself. finally, after the silence settles between them a little: ]

Because you feel so much.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-11 07:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Your insistence is not reassuring.

[ she says it matter-of-factly rather than accusingly-- and refrains from pointing out that it's impossible, really, for her to forget about anything short of taking a blow torch to her circuits. ]

Why will you not discuss this with me?
Is it an issue of trust?
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-13 05:18 am (UTC)(link)
I do not understand why you deem such discussion to be a waste of time.
Do you not feel burdened by containing these feelings?
While I am admittedly still developing my understand of complex emotions, experience has taught me to share with others as a method of coping.


[ if she were organic still, she'd be pursing her lips at him, worry in the lines of her eyes and her mouth. but like this, she only has that impassive metal face, the quiet electric hum of her steady voice. ]

I am concerned you will collapse under the weight of your own feelings.
I am concerned that you will break.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-15 07:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ she doesn't answer immediately-- she pauses again, instead, watching him, taking in the way he visibly closes himself off from her. it's difficult. she's always struggled with this-- the emotional aspect of any relationship. ]

Karkat.

[ his name first. appeasing. maybe even apologetic. it's hard to say, but her voice is calm and quiet. ]

You are misunderstanding me.
It was not my intention to insult you.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-15 12:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ her instinct is to push him. to push until the answer is satisfactory. but she says nothing for several long beats, just watching him, watching his face and knowing how he trusts her.

finally:
]

Then we will not discuss it, if that is what you wish.
Perhaps I should not have raised the subject.
I apologize.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-23 08:08 am (UTC)(link)
I understand.

[ her answer comes promptly-- no hesitation in her acknowledgment of his wishes. emotions can be difficult. she knows that much, despite whatever desire she has to seek a more satisfying resolution than this. ]

It is not my intention to distress you.
It is merely that you are important to me.
Therefore, it is my priority to ensure your well-being, emotional or otherwise.
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[personal profile] heartlessglitch 2013-08-24 04:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she watches him steadily for a moment or two, before speaking at length: ]

I regret that I am unable to comfort you sufficiently.
I do not know how.
But it is my hope that you remember how I feel for you.
And that you know that you may seek me whenever you require me.