karkat vantrash (
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capeandcowllogs2013-07-16 05:58 pm
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you reach inside and tear out all your cables
WHO: karkat and danger.
WHERE: their place.
WHEN: tuesday afternoon.
WARNINGS: karkat's mouth.
SUMMARY: a robot and an alien complain about humanity and are kinda sappy towards each other.
FORMAT: quick!
[ with both of them so busy lately, it's not very often that karkat can manage to catch danger at home. he has more success tracking her down at the institute, or the psychiatric hospital, but today, it seems luck is with him, when he lets himself into her (previously his) room. ]
Danger?
WHERE: their place.
WHEN: tuesday afternoon.
WARNINGS: karkat's mouth.
SUMMARY: a robot and an alien complain about humanity and are kinda sappy towards each other.
FORMAT: quick!
[ with both of them so busy lately, it's not very often that karkat can manage to catch danger at home. he has more success tracking her down at the institute, or the psychiatric hospital, but today, it seems luck is with him, when he lets himself into her (previously his) room. ]
Danger?
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her attention, and those luminous eyes, are on him the moment he enters the room. ]
I am here, Karkat.
How may I assist you?
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she sits on the bed. it dips under the weight of her metallic body, but she's careful at least, gesturing for karkat to sit with her. ]
Have you found me less accessible recently?
[ a beat, then she goes on: ] That was not my intention.
I apologize.
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"Irons in the fire."
I see.
[ she considers this a moment. ]
Will you tell me what you have been doing?
I am interested in "catching up" with you.
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It's nothing all that interesting. I just have a lot of responsibilities to keep afloat with. [ wow lying through his teeth. ] I'd rather hear about how you've been than talk about the miscellaneous errands I have to run on a day to day basis in an attempt to keep my life from falling apart at the seams, honestly.
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instead: ]
Acknowledged.
Current status: I am pleased to be returned to my robotic body.
Working with Norman Osborn on his facility was irritating at best before.
I believe he did not find me fully competent.
However, an acquaintance of mine has begun to treat me differently, which I am annoyed by.
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I thought that he understood me.
That he was accepting of what I am.
[ a pause, then something hardens in her tone, ever so subtly. ]
But when he saw my robotic form, he was displeased with it.
He condescended towards me, as if to make a point of my inferiority in being a machine.
It was unlike him.
I felt betrayed.
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Yeah, well, sometimes assholes are pretty talented at giving you the opposite impression, at least until a faint breeze comes along and topples their shoddily constructed person-disguise to reveal them in all their shit encrusted, hemorrhoidal shame.
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My experiences agree with what you have said.
I suppose I merely hoped naively that his acceptance of me was real.
Perhaps I should have known better.
[ a brief pause, before she reaches out to briefly brush cool metal fingertips against karkat's shoulder. ]
Regardless, I am comforted by your companionship.
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Were you angry?
[ her tone isn't accusing, only curious at most, and she lets the full weight of her attention rest on him expectantly. ]
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Karkat, I am concerned for you.
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Because you feel so much.
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when he does answer, it's measured, awkward. there's a touch of the defensive in his tone. ]
I'm an empath. Feelings tend to be a thing that happens occasionally. [ absolutely not the point and he knows it. ] This conversation isn't about me, anyway, just forget about it, okay? I'll be fine. You don't have to worry about me.
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[ she says it matter-of-factly rather than accusingly-- and refrains from pointing out that it's impossible, really, for her to forget about anything short of taking a blow torch to her circuits. ]
Why will you not discuss this with me?
Is it an issue of trust?
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[ he lets out an exhale, and struggles to suppress the urge to lash out, as his usual defense mechanisms dictate he should. ]
I don't want a full length discussion about how I'm a hysterical maelstrom of neurosis and emotional dysfunction, okay, that's not what I roll out of my cocoon in the evening to envision myself doing. I have it under control, and examining it at length is only going serve to waste both our time. Can we just drop it, please?
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Do you not feel burdened by containing these feelings?
While I am admittedly still developing my understand of complex emotions, experience has taught me to share with others as a method of coping.
[ if she were organic still, she'd be pursing her lips at him, worry in the lines of her eyes and her mouth. but like this, she only has that impassive metal face, the quiet electric hum of her steady voice. ]
I am concerned you will collapse under the weight of your own feelings.
I am concerned that you will break.
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Okay, well, contrary to what you seem to think, I'm not such a pathetic, pants wetting ninny that I can't handle my own damn feelings without imploding in upon myself in a magnificent supernova of concentrated fucking failure, okay? [ he snaps, tone harsh and biting; one he rarely uses with her, these days. ]
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Karkat.
[ his name first. appeasing. maybe even apologetic. it's hard to say, but her voice is calm and quiet. ]
You are misunderstanding me.
It was not my intention to insult you.
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I know. [ danger is, if nothing else, straightforward. he can take her at face value. ] But I still don't want to talk about this.
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finally: ]
Then we will not discuss it, if that is what you wish.
Perhaps I should not have raised the subject.
I apologize.
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Look. [ he hesitates. ] I appreciate the fact that you're worried about me. And simply because I don't want to discuss it now doesn't mean we can't ever talk about it. I just need some time, okay?
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[ her answer comes promptly-- no hesitation in her acknowledgment of his wishes. emotions can be difficult. she knows that much, despite whatever desire she has to seek a more satisfying resolution than this. ]
It is not my intention to distress you.
It is merely that you are important to me.
Therefore, it is my priority to ensure your well-being, emotional or otherwise.
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I regret that I am unable to comfort you sufficiently.
I do not know how.
But it is my hope that you remember how I feel for you.
And that you know that you may seek me whenever you require me.