why is it always the logic that goes first

[notsoloyal]

WHO: the 'Waves of Shock and Sound
WHERE: Shockwave's room
WHEN: Not long after this post
WARNINGS: Awkward, abuse of blue/purple font, abuse of the words logical/illogical, Soundwave is gay so there is some making out. ALL SOUNDWAVE'S FAULT.
SUMMARY: Shockwave's desires are messing up his logic. This leads to a breakdown. Soundwave goes to try and help.
FORMAT: Quicklogs are my friends.


[He knows - mostly - what's going on. Something is messing with his logic. Something is making him feel compelled to do things, that really he cannot view as illogical. Things that could prove useful to him, but logic does not dictate that course of action. He cannot act upon them, he cannot go against logic. The repercussions could be unfortunate, it would be logical to wait. Logical until the calculations were more in favor of such actions. He should not wish to do anything until that time. And yet he does.]

[So he sits, curled up on the ground, leaning against his bed, just thinking. Or trying to. Grimlock in his lap. It's all so very quiet.]

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[Rumble's been put to bed, along with the cub he has yet to name. The other children are also finally sleeping, fortunately. It makes this easier.]

[What he wants. He knows what he wants, and he realizes it's getting worse, but it's harder to not fulfill what he wants.]

[Silently, he knocks the door. He'll be careful. Reel himself in.]

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[He doesn't bother look up when he hears the knock. Too much else going on in his head. It's slowly getting harder to focus on the logic, but he's not going to stop trying.]

[He almost forgets to answer. Almost.]

What?

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[notsoloyal]

[He hesitates.]

...

You would come in even if I told you to leave.

[He's not going to fight about this. He wouldn't win at this point anyway.]

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...

[notsoloyal]

... No.

[Not moving from where he is.]

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[Opening to door, bro.]

[notsoloyal]

[He makes no move, nor does he say anything when Soundwave opens the door. Just continuing to remain where he is. Grimlock however lifts his head, acknowledging the other Decepticon's presence.]

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[He shuts the door behind himself, then raises his hand to soundproof the room. Soundwave pauses for a moment, to listen to the any potential bugs in the room. Can't be too careful considering the way Starscream is behaving.]



[Soundwave crouches down, but does not sit beside Shockwave. He simply kneels across from him, keeping his distance. For now, at least.]

[notsoloyal]

Not particularly.

[Juuuuust going to be avoiding eye contact for now.]

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[Remains generally expressionless.]

[notsoloyal]

[He considers - as much as his spinning thoughts will allow. Likely it would not hurt to inform Soundwave what is going on. The conflict going on in his mind. He is not certain if he should, but likely it will do no harm. He does trust him.]

...

     I am... feeling compelled.

  Compelled towards... things I...








                 want.

It is illogical.   It hurts.

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[That compulsion. Through the fog, he recognizes it, but does not want to change it. At the same time, he knows, he wants to make it stop, he can usually stop himself.]

O HAI NEW THREAD

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[Kisses his chin.]

IT'S SO SPARKLY AND NEW.

[notsoloyal]

That is rather... unDecepticon like of you.

MINT OUT OF THE BOX.

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[Although he's thinking on a slightly more personal level than simply a fellow teammate.]

WE GOT TO BE REAL CAREFUL WITH IT.

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I do not need to be protected.

[Doesn't actually answer the question, but doesn't quite realize that either.]

DON'T DROP IT.

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[Tilts his head faintly.]

DON'T BEND THE EDGES.

[notsoloyal]

[Frowns.]

That... that does not mean I need to be protected.

NO FINGERPRINTS.

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WEAR GLOVES.

[notsoloyal]

... How do you protect me from that?

DON'T BREATHE ON IT

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DON'T EVEN TOUCH IT.

[notsoloyal]

... Which is appreciated.

[Leans against him, being careful not to disturb Grimlock. STUPID LIZARD.]

DON'T EVEN LOOK AT IIIIT.

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[Nods a little; he picks up Grimlock to place onto the floor again. GO AND BE FREE, LIZARD. Soundwave places his arms loosely around Shockwave. That's pleasant.]

... HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO TAG IF I CAN'T LOOK AT IT.

[notsoloyal]

[He's a bit relieved when Soundwave puts Grimlock on the floor. He doesn't have to worry about being smacked in the face - although now he just has to worry about being bit. It is unlikely however. Blinks, gently leaning up against him a bit more.]

Hm.

[Yes. He supposes this isn't so bad. Quietly he wraps his arms around Soundwave's midsection.]