this city never sleeps

[luckout]

WHO: Vriska Serket [luckout] and Kanaya Maryam [glowsferatu]
WHERE: Vriska's hive
WHEN: Sometime last week because King and I are Decisive
WARNINGS: Language mostly
SUMMARY: Kanaya comes to see Vriska, the papers are possibly moved
FORMAT: Brackets

[Most people are probably out doing last minute shopping for Christmas, but that most doesn't include Vriska, who is hunched over her computer tapping away and doing god knows what. She's probably playing MMOs, if we're being honest though. She doesn't celebrate Christmas, despite having heard of it from human friends. It's not a troll holiday, and she never really celebrated 12th Perigees back home anyway, so it's really just another regular week for her, just with a noticeable temperature drop. She should probably invest in more blankets or thicker clothes or something.]

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[glowsferatu]

[ kanaya's face hardens as the package is dropped, he eyes staying on the spot on the floor it occupies for a few moments as her mouth tries for something resembling a sneer. it comes out as a pout.

her eyes finally meet vriska's again. ] I've always cared, Vriska. That's my weakness. It never kept you away before but by your own weakness.

You could at least do me the courtesy of taking the responsibility you're due.

[ but she can't exactly say vriska's wrong, either. the spark isn't there anymore, not the same way. it isn't hate that draws her ire at vriska's word, just annoyance. she can't even feel heartbroken at the implication here, she knew it was coming already. the only feeling is a sad sort of emptiness. ]

[luckout]

Let's just say I was really good at deluding myself into thinking you hated me more than you cared. But that was never the case, was it?

[It feels empty to Vriska too. It's a void she doesn't want to be there, though even if this hadn't gone south like this, John would have probably had a problem with it anyway. Still, she thought that they'd finally found the quadrant that could work for them, but it turned out to be just as big a failure as the last one. And had ended much the same. Fizzled away into nothing.]

There's nothing I have to take responsibility for here, Kanaya. You're the one who couldn't keep your feelings straightened out. I'm starting to doubt you ever actually hated me in the first place. If anything, you could say you were stringing me along! Again.

[glowsferatu]

[ with just those last few words, kanaya can already feel her fists balling, her eyes shutting tight to keep her from staring daggers. she wasn't going to get mad, she didn't want to get mad, she just wanted to put it to rest. what she didn't need is a reminder of just why she'd hated vriska so much to begin with. ]

You are absolutely incredible. I can hardly believe that someone like you could even deign to exist! The only thing worse is that I fooled myself into thinking you could actually change.

[ her eyes open, she couldn't hold the dagger back forever. ] I'm not an apathetic person, Vriska, and I never pretended to be anything short of what I am. I do what I have to, and maybe if you weren't such a mess yourself, I could have held it back. If there's one thing I'm good at, it's that. When you died, I didn't give up on you because of how I felt. I didn't give up on us. Don't act like the timing of this is coincidence, that it only comes at some revelation of what I am rather than how you feel.

Know this, I have never hated anyone the way I did you. That was never a lie. I never fucking strung you along! But I'm not your scapegoat anymore. You can't blame me for your shortcomings, you'll have to own up to them yourself.

You owe me that much.