capeandcowllogs | don't meddle with the mind you don't know what you'll find

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Affection, Soundwave? ...And, hn. And the examination table. If this was due to Desire...

What is it exactly that you want?

[Just get the hard questions out of the way first.]

[He attempts to appear visually relaxed. Distant, mostly. However, his teeth clench and his fingers dig faintly into the couch. No, he does not wish to approach this subject at all. It won't gain him anything.]

MY DESIRES: COMPLICATED.

[Not terribly so. But he is not about to admit them so simply.]

QUERY. DOES WHAT I WANT HAVE ANY EFFECT ON YOU?

[He raises a brow, it isn't hard to miss that Soundwave is not exactly pleased with this subject. Still it has to be addressed.]

It might. That would depend on what your desires are.

[Folds his arms. Obviously, it is time to be vague.]

...
YOUR WELL-BEING: OF INTEREST TO ME.

Yes. So you mentioned quite a few times during my... breakdown. I do recall.

[Frowns just slightly.]

That really is not enough to allow me to give you an answer.

[Raises a brow.]

HN.
WHAT I WANT.

[He figures it's not really going to matter what he wants.]

AND WHAT WILL YOU DO IF I GIVE YOU THIS DATA?

I would like to know, should this end up causing any problems.

Although that is doubtful.

[Well. Aside from the fact that they've been avoiding each other anyway.]

THAT IS ALL THAT YOU WOULD DO WITH THE DATA.

[It's not quite a question, but he implies it. Soundwave peers up at him. Not so much skeptical as he is steadily getting annoyed already with this topic.]

Correct. I am certainly not going to be informing anyone about it.

[Considers. Giving away data so freely is unusual, but... honestly, he has done so before. He'd informed Shockwave of all of his known abilities. However, this is different. This gets far too close to personal.]

I WANT.
COMPANIONSHIP FROM YOU.

[That is as much as he can admit without giving the whole truth.]

[He blinks. Companionship? Soundwave was just filled with surprises it seemed. Lots and lots of confusing illogical surprises.]

Hn. And avoiding me was somehow going to allow you to achieve that?

[Brow twitches. He's trying not to react too much, but the remark does annoy him.]

I REQUIRED TIME TO CONSIDER MY ACTIONS.
AND I WAS NOT THE ONLY ONE AVOIDING ANOTHER.

[Eyes narrow.]

I was quite illogical last week. Unfortunately it is a problem that takes longer to fix in these bodies. And I do prefer to be alone when I am fixing that problem.

My apologies if you found my avoiding you to be an insult.

YOU ARE FAR MORE ILLOGICAL THAN YOU DESIRE TO ADMIT.
AND I DOUBT YOU ARE PARTICULARLY APOLOGETIC, SHOCKWAVE.

Hn. And what makes you say that?

[This was already not turning out as planned.]

[Stands up. Slowly approaches.]

I AM AWARE YOU HAVE EMOTION.

[Theme park death glare.]

They have been dealt with.

[Keeps his distance. Barely.]

YOU CANNOT SIMPLY DELETE YOUR EMOTION.

I removed them before, I can do it again.

IT IS NOT BASIC PROGRAMMING THAT CAN BE REMOVED EASILY.
HOWEVER. IF IT IS WITHIN YOUR COMFORT TO IGNORE EMOTION, I WILL ACKNOWLEDGE THAT.

[Clenches his fists.]

Hnn. I do not ignore them. And I know that it cannot be removed easily.

I see no reason to keep emotion however. It is far too illogical.

REMINDER: YOU HAVE ALREADY PERFORMED PLENTY OF ILLOGICAL CHOICES.
QUERY: WOULD YOU RATHER IGNORE THAT WEEK ALTOGETHER?
INFORM ME THE POINT OF THIS DISCUSSION, SHOCKWAVE.

Reminders are not required, I know what I did...

Hn, and no. There is no reason to ignore it.

[He can't ignore it like nothing happened. He knows what happened, ignoring it now, being in denial of it all. No. That would be illogical. He can't change what happened, he just has to acknowledge that it did and move on.]

...

Define companionship.

[Defining... Defining means he'll have to be honest. Not something he was looking forward to being in this conversation. That, and he's displeased at the lack of response. Just what is it that Shockwave wants?]

COMPANIONSHIP.
...I DESIRE TO HAVE A DIFFERENT RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU THAN SIMPLY LINKED BY BEING PART OF THE SAME FACTION.

[He isn't sure how much more vague he can be while attempting to also get his point across. He isn't certain if he wants to openly admit that he just desires Shockwave's company.]

[What he wants. Mostly at the moment he wants answers, more from himself than Soundwave, but he isn't sure how to get them. He sees little reason to inform Soundwave of much just yet.]

How different?

[Vague answers do not really help. Shockwave's never really been good at figuring out emotional things.]

assuming the examination table terribleness happened?!

YEAH THAT'S FINE. \o\

okay then! terrible terrible waves.

it's mostly soundwave's fault.

it's all soundwave's fault.

always.

illogicalwave.

why does my name keep getting longer.

it's your own fault. you make it get that way.

noooo not my fault ever.

i thought everything was your fault.

NUH UH

well this awkward is your fault.

not always! ...just most of the time.

alllllllll of the awkward from the event was yooooour fault. you were a naughty wave.

naughty wave. MY NAME IS STILL GETTING TOO LONG.

... you keep giving me ideas.

sob

nooooot my fault.

yes it is. i see you there.

noooo you don't. i did nothing.

you aren't so innocent. don't lie to meeee.

i'm more innocent than you.

bro, i don't think either of us are exactly innocent. at all.

i am so innocent. you don't even know.